I Traveled To ‘Good To Me’

If you’ve read any of my past posts, it is obvious that I am a girl who loves to travel. The journey trumps the destination every time for me. No cliché, just my truth. You gotta love when you’ve taken a trip or two and your geographic location remained the same. This past weekend was so rich in experiences from just being present in my life. I believe my ‘Parisian Butterfly’ showed up in my spirit and was like “Let’s GO!”.

My weekend formula wasn’t too different from the normal routine. Catching up with a great friend, check. Taking care of a little personal business, check. Smiling at the handsome stranger who isn’t afraid to look me in my eyes, check. But something changed for me these past 72 hours. I am taking a huge leap of faith in my attempt to record it literally… because frankly I am not sure of  the “what”, that it is I want to express. Try your best to follow me please.

I saw the future. I am semi speaking metaphorically, but not really. Still with me? The encounters that I had with old and new friends, strangers even, has granted me a back stage pass of what lies ahead for my life. I am some type of wonderful, If I must say so myself.  That declaration is not birthed from a place of arrogance or conceit. The space that I am in has granted me permission to see those amazing, wonderful, inexplicable and Loving things about myself through YOU. Not you personally, well maybe if you are one of my many new subscribers (Hey Guys :)! ) When I say you I mean you as in ‘a people’ so to speak. And I LOVE YA’LL for this moment like you would not believe. For a great deal of my life, my mind has been in a constant tennis match between good and evil thoughts about myself. For so long the dark and ugly dominated my mind until the point that it became comfortable to hear certain thoughts that produced death, fear and worthlessness. I have been working so diligently to counteract and eliminate all negativity from my life starting with me, and my thoughts. We have a tendency to express that we want to get rid of negative people, spaces and blah blah blah. I get it, I really do. But how many of us actually take accountability for the atmosphere we provide that invites these things we wish to eliminate, but create a welcome mat for? It starts with you…and me.

I’ve challenged myself with being purposeful in my thoughts. Once I allowed my mind to calm down a little and actually listen to them… I realized I was experiencing more traffic of the negative than the positive. A negative thought in my opinion is ANYTHING that counteracts a possibility for hope. Here is an example: “They may not go for that idea” is the same language as “I hate myself”. It may not appear that serious to you. However I am in a space where if it does not produce life, I do not wish to have any parts of it. My personal project consists of me recording myself loving on me audibly several times throughout the day. At the end of the day I play back and listen to myself give me so much love. Yes. That is what I am doing when I have several minutes of stillness, I talk to myself. Literally.

What has happened in return in such a short period of time is magical. I left my home on Friday morning and went many places without boarding a plane, a train or a bus (excluding the MTA, I live in NYC). My spirit traveled to Wholeness. Fulfillment. Discovery. And much more that I still am unable to articulate. You guys once I gave myself permission to talk good to me…it was like a new light begin to shine and attract all kinds of goodies. Let’s just say, stay tuned.

Where will you go that requires just your presence?

Just in case you don’t know, my Parisian Butterfly is a white butterfly I discovered while I visited Montmartre in Paris over two years ago. It symbolizes my next, when I see them anywhere in the world I know that my hand is being held by the Ultimate Care Giver and I better hold on. In short it gives me hope, keeps me pressing on.

 

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How Do You Spend Your 24?

*Disclaimer: This is a personal post and reminder to myself before anything else. I apologize in advance for my selfishness*

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We all have the same twenty four hours in a day. As long as we have today, we have another opportunity. The fight daily for greatness, success, and happiness is an infinite one, if you are continually evolving as a person. Stagnation doesn’t compliment those words I used to describe what most people strive for on a daily basis. I support these words and what they represent to those who have worked incredibly hard to see that they are applied to their life. How much has it cost you? What does the sacrifice look like in your life for the tangible evidence that you’re successful? I believe and support a strong work ethic for what you say you want out of life (a personal goal of my own is to strengthen mine for my personal business goals). However I am not subscribed to the #NoDaysOff or #TeamNoSleep culture. NEVER will be. That concept costs too much.

I desire peace, self love in it’s totality, an experience everyday of my life, the means to do everything I please, and the resources to be a gift to others in whatever capacity that may be needed. How much will that cost me? Let’s see…I would have to be committed to creating some down time in my mind just so my thoughts don’t drive me crazy, if I desire peace. I would also have to pay close attention to my circle of influence. Next I would have to be so kind, respectful, loving and caring to myself that anything contrary to those things remove themselves from my atmosphere automatically. Practicing patience, being encouraging and non judgmental towards others so they can love themselves on their terms is important as well. A journey awaits everyone who is open to it. My ability to stay present will increase my daily experiences. Knowing my priorities, being committed to my work and contributing to the world from my portion will most certainly make room for me to do EVERYTHING in life I desire. Paying it forward, and remembering that the smallest act usually has the largest impact will keep me believing that I will always have a great inventory of resources to be a blessing to others…that’s all. That is all I have to do. I am capable of doing all of the above and more. How I spend my twenty four makes the difference. Paying attention to what dominates my time daily has had an incredible impact on how I see things now. Frankly I wasted so much time worrying about how much time I didn’t have. Ironic, but true. After making such an observation it blew my mind how much of my time I had access to when I approached my days differently. I am now committed to spending my twenty four wisely.

Their are some things that I have experienced in my life that has cost me too much of my emotional, mental and yes physical currency. To not do everything I can in my daily twenty four hours to contribute to what I say I want is self robbery. God’s given me too much to do nothing with it! I do not have to edit my version of a Quality Life for no one…I am worth what I say I want. How I spend my twenty four moving forward will be the test to see how much I believe what I say I can do.

Is your twenty four being sacrificed for “stuff” that appears to represent success? Are you cheapening your happiness because of  poor time management? We all get twenty hours a day. Is your time being spent like this ↓

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*Both photos provided by google image search

Hey Autumn!

Hey guys…yes I’ve been MIA since my return to NYC. But now I’m back. Tis the season to get and stay focused. The last time we talked about a season I was paying homage to the greatness that is Spring. Today we get up close and personal with its opposite; Fall.

I will admit I am an individual who thrives and cries, sometimes complains when in transition. I enjoy good weather and loads of sun light. However my fancy gets tickled when leafs change colors and you no longer wish to choke your caffeinated drink of choice to death with crushed ice. Something about the arrival of September triggers people to get and stay focused, for a little while at least. It’s been some time since I’ve been an official student, but I get excited every time I see the stores targeting parents and adult students alike with their flashy for sale signs. Neon highlighters, fun shaped post-its and cute little note books? I’ll take two of each please. My source of creativity speeds into high gear just from the visual. With Fall officially here and only a few months left in the year, its like the whole world takes notice that its “grind time”. I am sure I am not only speaking for myself when I express that all that stuff that pondered my brain in the beginning of the year, now takes a front row seat at my extreme to do list makeover show and say “hey did you forget about me”? Granted I tackled my biggest goal and moved to another country. But there are a few things that I have yet to do…that was supposed to get checked off my list a few months back.

I am not in need of a new season to get focused, however this chic is mighty glad its harvest time. Sure, I have a few things to take care of before we enter into 2014, but I most certainly didn’t take a daily dose of lazy vitamins since I’ve been home. A few notes here, video recordings there, and a free class taken a time or two has all played a huge part in things to come for me. My harvest is looking mighty good and for that very reason alone…I must honor my own efforts and take advantage of the drive to stay focused. If you’re saying to your self “damn, I was supposed to do this, this and this by now”. Don’t beat yourself up! You have time to do all of those things as long as you are blessed with the opportunity to experience a “today”. Life is about the journey…take a step closer to be committed to staying focused. I will be on the path that has the yellow brick road, say hi if you see me 🙂

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If you have been blessed with the magically gift to stay laser sharp Focused continuously please share a tip or two with me.